How I met my teacher Ajahn Brahm
There I was sitting in meditation. The pain was immense. I did not however, stretch my legs even though the pain in the knee was huge.
Then suddenly, I was absorbed into a most beautiful state. It was like being inside a fluorescent bulb, nay the bulb is no match to the state I was in ….because the light is intense in a fluorescent bulb…true I was absorbed in intense light but it was not harsh like the intense light of a florescent bulb, the state I was in was extremely mild like the moonlight… so …so nice. It is very hard to describe. This is not imagination …. nor wishful thinking. This is my own experience. I was like… wow.. what’s this! I could not feel my body anymore, nor could hear anything. I was stuck in a most blissful state in the world !!! ...something like being inside a light extremely peaceful.
But then… soon I felt this blissful peace of mind waning. Then I was like …Oh don’t let it go! But then again the blissfulness was too much to bear…! It soon waned off and I came back into myself …in my body… There I was sitting inside the hall of the International Vipassana Centre at Wijerama Road, Colombo 7... what on earth was that state of mind. Except.. that I recalled, that I"ve experienced the same thing before at the Kanduboda Meditation Centre about 20 years ago.
This experience left me baffled. I remembered that I had the same experience when I went to learn meditation for the first time at the Kanduboda Vipassana Centre. Then after a very very long time later once again, I came to somewhat close to this state ...one morning, while meditating at home before leaving for work.
I was extremely happy after the experience but completely confused….because if this happens again I knew, there is nothing I can do. Once I get stuck in this state, I could only be there stuck!!! However blissful, I knew this is not Nibbana.. and I thought, if I get stuck like this I cannot go further. I could fathom that “this” blissful state is the pure mind.. in its pristine form, but that’s it. There was no one to confirm it nor help me with proper advice.
I was extremely happy after the experience but completely confused….because if this happens again I knew, there is nothing I can do. Once I get stuck in this state, I could only be there stuck!!! However blissful, I knew this is not Nibbana.. and I thought, if I get stuck like this I cannot go further. I could fathom that “this” blissful state is the pure mind.. in its pristine form, but that’s it. There was no one to confirm it nor help me with proper advice.
So many things have come and gone since then. So many things including a Tsunami to Sri Lanka, a country that never experiences such things.. Even though the Tsunami is a horrible thing… it turned out that I had fortune turned my way because of this awful ocean wave. All due to this awful tsunami, people the world over came forward trying to help the tsunami affected people of the ravaged land. Such was their sympathy and concern that they wanted to do the best they possibly can. Some Smart Singaporeans, namely the Buddhist Fellowship of Singapore, thought, the best they could offer is to bring blessings for the ravaged country to make a turn around back to normal. To accomplish this task they brought Ajahn Brahm with his “Mega Mettha” to this island along with a huge donation to rebuild houses of the people who lost theirs due to the tsunami.